Its very tragic and I used to think it was selfish. But until you have had a gun in your hand and was so low that you were thinking about it, then you realize it isnt selfish. The demons I have running around in my head almost pushed me to that. People who say that it is selfish have no fucking clue what they are talking about. I have a 9 year old little girl running around my head asking me why her dad killed her. She was killed by her dad in 2008 at Tinker AFB, along with her little brother. Then the dickhead took his own life. I was the senior command post controller that day and relive it in vivid detail everyday. That is just one of suicides I had to deal with in my career.