Welcome, Javie!
Even with "dead is dead" setting, the sim decides, whether you died of a crash or not.
That does not always happen in a believeable way (like in your cloud case), but maybe
in a future version.
From your last bit, it looks as if you fly without a joystick?
If so - that is something you should change quickly. You need a stick for really piloting
such a craft, and rudder was very important.
So either get a decent twist stick, where you control rudder by twisting it,
or get pedals (but that is of course more expensive).
The Thrustmaster T.Flightstick X works alright for me, and it's only about 30,- Euro.
And when you REALLY get into LOVING this early combat, you should get the view devise
"TrackIR Pro" one day. It's about 125,- Euro, but worth every cent - you feel like you are
really in the cockpit, looking around.
Oh, and please give me your hometown and country/state for the OFF Pilots map, okay?