I'm an alcoholic.
I've been drinking since I was 21. 9 years it is.
When did it started? On 9/11 perhaps. When I saw the planes in a foreign country hitting The Towers, and I realized how so smart,
yet simple move it was.
I think 9/11 was the begining of my downfall... from a well-perceived student of architecture to a bum I become two years later.
edit: I finished, have Royal Institute of British Architects certificate, so no worries about this.
What is it to be alcohol addicted?
It's all about being alone, becoming left and spending weekends alone.
I lost too many people I still call Friends. During this journey of mine, I've spend too many New Years unconciously at my flat. Not watching the fireworks.
About becoming man (moderators, please edit)
I've lost my virginity at age of 26, with a hooker. Gabi was Her name.
About loving
Being drunk makes you dizzy, makes you angry, makes you claim whatever's not yours.
Makes you lost, loosing The One you love. Makes you jealous... hitting The One you loved for 4 years in the face. Makes you interact in looosely based sex relationships. Being drunk not able to satisfy...
About friends.
Lost them. Won't speak to me again, I really can't say I wonder why.
Just let me give you insights: 30 years old male with 23 years old hooker type girl (in a red dress that makes you set world on flames) writng at night she just had seks with her 50+ boss... bad combination. Smashing your only love you had in your miserable life. Not good. Smashing your friend not good too... Not answering phone from your new 19-years old girlfriend: please all repeat: not good...
About family.
They get used to after few years....
edit:
and after few "visitations" in the ER
edit 2:
typo in RIBA