Just so know you are not alone. I did the “Homeless” crap for two years in Colorado, living in a camp by the Colorado river ( -6 deg in the winter) around a lot of really worthless people, working when I could , getting drunk , people killing each other over bulls**t, hiding from the cops( they would do a sweep and destroy camps) The one thing I learned from it all is “Trust no one” They are not your friends ,they will rob you blind, your life is worthless to them. I know this sounds harsh, but it’s about survival. I got lucky, my sister let me stay at her place to get back on my feet, got sober ( 3 years+) , found a job and today I turned 58. So never think it’s hopeless and remember that if you want to change the way things are going , you have to make it happen and I’ll tell you, it’s one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do.
Raven